Confession Time: (Mine, not your’s) I am the woman who is weary because she doesn’t rest. (But I’m learning to change)
I wake early, work diligently through the day, and collapse into bed late at night. While my body tries to rest, my mind seems to get a second wind. Seriously–It never stops! CRAZY RIGHT?!?
Speaking of my mind…not only does it never stop…it is never on “just one thing” or “the task at hand”. Over the years, I have become a skilled mental and physical multi-tasker.
Can you relate to any of this? I start out very well and treat each day and activity as a sprint with my first sip of coffee being my starting gun. I cram as much as possible in to my day, and rarely complete my “to-do list”. (Oftentimes I add more to my list as the day goes on- solid type A behavior I am told)
As my daily multi-tasking sprint continues, tiredness seeps in. I don’t slow down or stop.
I don’t slow down or pause for the needed rest. Over time this tiredness leads to me becoming overwhelmed and weary.
OVERWHELMED and WEARY
To the person unfamiliar with my personal roller coaster of ups and downs, the response of “I’m good, just overwhelmed” may seem to have little impact. To the people closest to me though, it is a response full of red flags and warnings.
It took years of struggling for me to recognize that I am in trouble when I begin using the word “overwhelmed”. When this word comes out of my mouth, I have moved from tired to weary. Once I hit weary… all activity STOPS. “Overwhelmed” is my safe word that keeps me from saying what I am really feeling. (Depressed, hopeless, incapable, like a failure.)
It becomes a burden to get out of bed. I withdraw from family, friends, and activity. I go to a dark place…not only with my presence but also in my mind.
The mind that typically is tallying the many things to be done, suddenly is focused on what a failure I am. Depression pricks at my mind looking for its way in while I am in this weary and vulnerable place.
THE CURE FOR WEARY
Its going to sound odd, but the cure is REST. Recognize what your mind and body are telling you. I am ashamed to say that “In my push through and get things done approach to life, I have never been good at this. To be honest, I am just now learning to listen to my body and responded in rest.
While rest is often times equated with sleep, they aren’t exactly the same thing. A person can most definitely sleep and not become rested.
As I try to figure out what rest is and honor its role in my life, I look to see what the bible has to say about it.
When I am weary from carrying the burden of my to-do list and other obligations and commitments, when I go to Jesus, He will give me rest. That brings peace to my mind that wants to fret and asks “But HOW do I rest”. Going to Jesus is pushing a pause button on the constant chatter and busyness. It may be soaking in some awesome worship music, praying, reading the bible, or going for a walk to connect with God’s creation.
WHAT ABOUT YOU?
How does weariness show up in your life?
Do you have “Red Flag Key Words” like I do? What are they?
If you have mastered the art of RESTING…how do you do it? What works for you?
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