I tried to mend things with my friend as well as understand why the betrayal happened…what did I do to offend her so deeply to cause the rift? I made no headway and gained no answers. There was nothing left for me to do except cry out to God. I clung to this verse praying that He really did hear my cries.
As time went on, more and more emotional wounds were inflicted as it seemed my “friend was determined to destroy everything that was special to me. It became a constant battle that affected every area of my life. I had to trust God in ways that I had never had to do so before. David had faith to believe that God would keep him safe during his time of betrayal.
I longed to lash out in revenge…to defend myself…but I had no way to do so. I also loved her too much to cause her the wounds she so eagerly caused me.
The following verses of Psalm 55 felt so familiar they hurt.
In my place of hurt, all I can do is give my burden to God and trust Him with it.
The relationship with my friend has never been repaired. I have never understood the source of our falling out or parting of ways. What has happened is that I my relationship with God grew deeper as I relied on Him to take care of me and not allow me to be crushed under the weight of the betrayal and assault.
Dear Lord, Help me treasure my relationship with you over all the others in my life. I trust you to protect me when wounds come from the ones I love. Give me the courage to continue to love and trust even though I have been wounded. Help me to not reject future relationships because of the scars of old ones. In Jesus’ name I pray~ Amen.